The Book Mystress: loss

I, Monique, The Book Mystress had a loss that i am struggling to comprehend.

My Cat, Joel-Branden who i have mentioned before and who helped my in my review of Sixteenth Summer and was mentioned in the post 5 things i love that are not books has lost his life.

He was attacked by dogs last tuesday.

Joel was my best friend and the man i confided in most, i know to most he just a cat.

Not many people know this but i was told a few years back i may never be able to have kids, i was told that as a 18 year old who didnt really want kids and it didnt matter because i had my Joel, now 23 and having lost him only a week i feel so empty in side and wish he was here, i have my girl Ella also in the 5 things post, but have had her off and one over the last year and up until xmas she wasnt not actually my dog, i love her and would die before her, but she just hasnt molded with me the same way Joel does.

About a month ago, a man came in to our house to buy some furniture he looked at me then looked at Joel then looked back at me, and said "That cat is a part of you" he hadnt even been here five mintues..

I cant understand why he had to go, he has helped me though so much, his bowl is still waiting for him on the washing machine.

I heard the attack happen and my brother saw it, i cant get the noises My brother and my cat made.

He was seven years old, and he was suposed to be put to sleep when he was 19,

i cant stop crying..

I wont for a while.

I am not one for pity or anything like that, but i love my blog and my followers and wanted every one to know why i have been absent the last week and why my posts may not be as regular, i mean, hell they may be, my mum told me to dive in to my hobbys to take my mind off it, but to be honest i dont want to move on from him.

he was my life for 7 years.

so bare with me guys, i love you thank you for following me,
I added a few pictures of him be thankful i didnt add the whole 800+ i have of him, love my baby alot,

R.I.P my little angel, mummy always told you i loves you, too much, but never enough. Cant wait to see you one day, love you and miss you